A Little Buddhism Today

Your work is to discover your world and then with all your heart give yourself over to it.

I have a life you know :-)

Sorry I've been on a two-day hiatus, but I'm more tired than alive right now... having auditory hallucinations.

Failed a test at school today, along with the rest of my class. My profs have no sympathy -- try harder, they say. My apartment reeks -- it hasn't been cleaned in weeks -- and I can't find the smelly stuff to at least pretend that it smells like lavendar blossoms everyday. I'm going to bed now, and I'll try to update myself on the world tomorrow.

And, in pennance, I give you, a cute boy lip synching one of my favorite songs...

We have a new mantra at school: 76 is an RN. (76=passing grade, which, for the record, I have a 74... first I have ever in my life been failing a class) It's gotten to that point.

On the bright side, I received word that I should be getting a juicy and exciting thing in the mail from, of all places, Equality Ohio.

Oh jesus, watching this video... go on, psychoanalyze it, bitches. LOL. It's all true, it's all true.

Text Message

Friend of mine texted me this in a moment of my low self-esteem:

God doesn't make junk.

Thoughts?

When I posted this on Twitter, I got two responses:

From @GCRMMediaClub: "God certainly does make a lot of junk: horrifically deformed babies, junk DNA, junk rituals and dogma, junk biblical texts"

From @nth_degree: "there is a phallic joke in there somewhere"

And from the indomitable @Dr_Jared (who is usually more loquacious than this): "what?"

Any other thoughts (keeping in mind this is a personal mantra now and it's the only thing holding up my fragile self-esteem :-)).

A thought for your morning...

Quoted by Bono, of all people...

"If you want to serve the age, betray it."

Brendan Kennelly, The Book of Judas

Passive aggressiveness this AM

Posted this almost a year ago... well... 10 months ago. Thought it was relevant as a mantra today.

...when all this is said and done, I have chosen the people around me and they will still be with me. You will be nothing more than another person that was a part of my decadence, another generic face in the "there were so many," another nothing in my life... and your issues, which you tried so desperately to place on me, will be gone and you'll have you to face in the morning.

Because I will have forgotten you, in the mass of a mess of my life. And the only people that will matter will still be around me.

And, Timmy M., this was not about you. Wasn't then, isn't now.

A thought for the first 2009 post...

"What can't stay, goes away."

-Ben Kweller

GENERAL STUFF: Fabulous beyond measure

I'm up on quotes today and watching Akeelah and the Bee. I like it. A lot.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. -- Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love

Jackie Danicki... I think we had a discussion about this very issue once.

There's always time for a personal mantra.

PS 700th post....