PERSONAL: My heart is full of you...

To all of you --

To the crazy ones, who fill my life with absurdity --

To the stable ones, whose lives I wish to emulate --

To the foreigners, whose experience I live vicariously through --

To the potheads, who giggle constantly but only give love --

To the drinking buddies, whose never ending screams of "OH MY GOD! LET'S DO SHOTS!" mean more to me than anything else, especially when I'm lonely --

To the scared ones, who think I'm still crumbling but have started to see me come back together --

To the intellectuals, whose respect for my intelligence makes me feel good about myself --

To the hippies and the hipsters, who just make me feel cool --

To the pretty ones, who, ostensibly, are just there to make me feel pretty, too, but really have shown me more love than anyone else --

To the partiers, who were there in darkness and still talk to me --

To the penpals, whose letters make my day complete --

To the straight ones, who help me find balance in my otherwise overly gay life --

To my family members, who are better friends than I could have ever hoped for --

To the distant ones, whom I'm terrified to say I wish they would write more for fear of them thinking I'm depressed again --

To the lost ones, who need to know that I still love them and think of them daily --

To the work buddies, who make my nights go round --

To the drag queens, whose drunken antics make me laugh --

To the bartenders, who know how to make my drinks just right --

To the alpha (fe)males, who think they can control the direction of the night but really want to just laugh at our antics --

To all the users and the losers, who have taught me more than everyone else listed above --

To all the sometimes and fair weather friends, who pop up at just the right times --

To the people who answer my phone calls and texts, and the people that no longer do --

To my ex's -- boyfriends, sex partners, and others -- who began my education on how to be gay, and good at it --

To my crushes, especially those who crush back, who make me giggly inside --

To my bosses, whose capability at forgiveness seems to know no bounds --

To the people who have rightly rejected me, who don't understand that I understand --

To the people who have lovingly accepted me, who don't understand how much that means --

To my readers, who don't ever understand what the fuck I'm talking about but somehow keep coming back --

And, of course, to the rest of you whose lessons and stories are yet to be told --

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My heart is filled today, and I wanted to share it with everyone.

That is all.

Much love.